I'm happier than ever. I spoke with the girl I was in love with (best conversation ever), and she didn't want to start a relationship. Instead of agression afterwards, there was this piece of mind that came with me. She said that God helps her through these times, and her view on this touched me. I didn't know what to do so I went to my mom, and she made an appointment with someone from her church (and the father of my best friend). He explained everything to me, and I got to see things in perspective. All those dark and sad moments (or long periods) were for the best. Seriously, I could hug that girl now, even though it would be a bit weird